the online diary and other things….

its never on, that is the thing about this chat

also I am certain that i can vent here as much as i want

it is never on… i have never thought to probe for a response

not today though… its midnight… or earlier

honestly its hard to keep up with time like this

especially later in the night lately…

it is on today…. “you are awesome” … the message reads.

you do not know me… or maybe you do….

i am the random stranger that has used your chat too much

“i like reading your stuff, hearing from you”….you said

i did not know you were reading…..

the first time you saw him you thought ” wow, he is so hot”

i dont remember when exactly i noticed….

maybe its how you explained an oxymoron

while walking hand in hand down the street, the stars above us

the night so young, street food at the end of the street…..

i may have come off as facetious

i just know that sitting there, watching you ace that quiz

or having the encyclopedia talk, i knew….

you said “yah, i am such a nerd” like it was a bad thing…

i thought wow…. he is mad smart….

i could like him.

becoming